Victoria 2015 025 edit

Why are all of us so focused on becoming known to the world? Why are we so determined to prove to the world that we really are ‘perfect’— whatever that means.

Reality is so much different. I can’t emphasize that enough to the younger generations that look up to celebrities, imagining themselves in their place. Every little kid, from even before they learn to walk, wants attention. This attribute obviously fades off for some of us but for most, it stays intact for the rest of our lives.

Who are you seeking attention from? Why are you risking so much just to prove that you really are good enough?

A few years ago, I was very determined to be known. For being a great guitarist, a great singer. Basically anything that I thought I was good at. I was so sure that that was what I wanted to do. All my energy was toward letting people know who I truly was. To just show me talent. To prove to them that I had it in me. Prove it to who?

So when I saw a flyer stating that there’d be auditions for a local music competition, I knew that this was it. This was where I’d start to become the star I wanted to be. This was where the world would know who I was. Days went by. I practiced a song that I had written. Over and over; in front of the mirror, in front of my parents, in front of my friends. The night before the audition, I was doing my practice routine in my room when I stopped mid song. A question had popped up out of nowhere. I didn’t know where it came from; maybe it was at the back of my mind the whole time. I asked myself out loud, Why do I have to prove my talent to the world? That question really shook me because wasn’t it enough that I had proven it to myself? That night, I decided I didn’t need to go to the audition. Sure I could go for fun, but even if I went, I wouldn’t be able to satisfy everyone. I wouldn’t have gotten the approval from everyone that I was skilled or talented. And even then, their opinions wouldn’t have mattered. They wouldn’t have defined who I am or who I want to be. It is my happiness that matters.

Because when you truly give up trying to impress people and worrying about what they might think, that is when you find true happiness.

That wins over everything.